Musings of a mommy on this thing called guilt…

Sooooo… tomorrow afternoon I’m heading out for my girls weekend! I am so excited about spending the weekend with two of my very close, sweet friends, Iva and Sally!! I haven’t seen Sally since our visit to Georgia last summer and we are soooooooooo excited about seeing her!

But…. why is it SO hard as a mom to feel ok with leaving? I know this weekend will be so good for all of us (especially for Ava and her daddy – b/c Ava is a major mommy’s girl and it will be good for her to spend some quality time with daddy). However, it’s like since becoming a mom, I’m programmed with guilt whenever I’m away from her doing something for me. Silly, I know. I totally believe that I need this time away. And I know I will have an absolute blast because I’m going to be with two amazing women. But for tonight, before I leave, I’m fighting the tears knowing I’ll miss this sweet little girl. I spent extra time loving on and holding her at bedtime this week to get in my Ava fix. I know that going away like this will make me a better mommy and wife because I’m getting a few days to be totally selfish and focus on me instead of someone else. I think the reason I’m having a hard time with this trip is because this will be the longest I’ve been away from her. But, I know she’s in great hands (she’s got an amazing dad!) and they will have fun on their daddy/daughter weekend!

Zach, thank you for being such a wonderful daddy and so supportive of me and my need to have some time for myself (and with my friends)! I’m so blessed and so thankful to have you as my husband!