Some days I wonder what it is that I’m doing blogging? I’m not a creative writer. I don’t have interesting things to discuss and I don’t have a “theme” blog. I don’t get paid to come here and share stories. I don’t even know if more than five people read it! And some days the prospect of sitting down to write when I have other things I’d rather do really weighs on me.
I have been seriously giving consideration over the past several weeks of where this blog is going. Is it time to call it quits? Take a break? Trudge through? I honestly wasn’t sure what I wanted to do.
And then the day before Easter, Ava and I were talking about her dress and how pretty she would look, and we decided to look back at her pictures from previous Easters. She loved seeing herself as a baby and each year after. She told me she “membered” wearing some of the dresses, though I know she didn’t.
And in that moment, I knew why I blog. I do it so we can remember those moments. I can look back at a given time and relive those moments. The thoughts, the feelings, the emotions involved are all brought back to life, fresh and vivid. And I love that.
I love that if I need to know something I can look back and see – when I wanted to remember how to do something with Reed, I knew there was a good chance I could look back at that time with Ava and there was a good chance I’d have it documented.
Not only that, one day this will be a memory book for the kids as well. They will be able to look back and see so many things about their childhood. Ava already loves looking back at old pictures of herself, and I have no doubt, that as she grows, she will enjoy this even more.
I have also made some great new friends through blogging. It’s funny how it can open up your world. Blogging helped my brother find his wife & his wife has become one of my very best friends! I love the community that is created through blogging. I have found or been given some fun opportunities and/or things through blogging. I learn about things I might not otherwise know about from other blogs! There are goods that definitely outweigh the bads!!
So, maybe I don’t write every day, or every other day, or even more than two times a week. And maybe no one reads it, but at the end of it all, this is for me, and for my family, and for our memories. And' that’s enough for me.